Wednesday, November 25, 2009
@ 5:33 PM
ok... i've cooled down now.
Seriously, it's not that i'm lazy or anything. i dont have the power to arrange the schedule.
Second, i'm just a teenager waiting for my results, i don't wanna end up as a workaholic like you.
Third, by my actions, i think it's absolutely obvious that i dread and will not want to work at your office... Unless you're too stupid to see. It's not that i don't wanna go, it's that i hate taking orders from you. you treat me like some kinda maid, and try putting yourself in my shoe you'll feel how i feel.
Fourth, no offence but you are always the one spoiling my day.
Like i could wake up one day feeling happy but you definitely have to spoil it. Idk why, but maybe it's just your natural reaction... Maybe you like to make people suffer? i'm not so sure about you..
fifth, i'm human. i need rest. it's my first time working, and you won't expect me to work all day 24/7 right?
lastly, i don't even get to keep the money. So work so hard for what! Really la, you don't even know how pathetic i feel sometimes by the amount of money you give me. I don't even get any money on school-less weekdays. (Thanks so much for it btw)
And you always claim that you are the one who understand me the most, well i tell you now. YOU DON'T.
There are other ppl around me who knows me better than you do fyi.
I'm gonna start praying to god everyday, hoping that you wouldn't spoil my happy times...
tyvm
Love, Onew's.
@ 5:10 PM
work yesterday was actually kind of fun!Like there was this senior manager(??) who came, and she was super nice.At first she taught me how to read the menu.Then she asked some people if they drank water or not, and i said no. Then she said "must drink water! must drink water and go toilet". Like she said it in a super caring tone. Then she asked another water to pour drink for me and vanessa.Also! I realised that there were 4 sec4's in the store now. LOL!!And this guy said: you took o's ah?Me: yea..Him: ... i learn Venice.. (LOLLOLLOL!!!!)The sentence came out from him immediately.OH FUCK GREAT.MY MOM JUST CALLED AND DEMAND THAT I HAVE TO WORK AT LEAST 5 DAYS A WEEK NOW.SHE FUCKING DID NOT TELL ME BEFORE WHEN I FIRST STARTED TO WORK.AND NOW THAT I FOUND ONE, SHE SAID : you can come here to work but you choose to go there. so it's your choice and if you don't work 5 days every week, you have to quit immediately and come to my office."FUCK IT LA, LIKE SHE DIDN'T EVEN SAY IT EARLIER.AND SO WHAT? NOW I'M THE BOSS AND I CAN DECIDE MY SCHEDULE MYSELF???FUCK OFF LA, SERIOUSLY.So now it's my fault la?you told me to find a job or i have to go to your office. I die also don't wanna go so i went to find a job in a short time limit of 3 FUCKING DAYS.And yeap, i got the job.SO NOW YOU FUCKING DEMAND MORE BY JUST SAYING?DO I LOOK LIKE SOME FUCKING BOSS WHO CAN ADJUST AND PLAN MY OWN WORK TIME???SERIOUSLY WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU.YOU COULD HAVE SAID THAT TO ME EARLIER RIGHT?FML LA SERIOUSLY.
Love, Onew's.
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
@ 1:24 PM
In love with T-ara!!Joheun Saram and Ko Ji Mar are so real. Like really meaningful!!I like Soyeon the most! Love her voice. :) :) :)mo du deur nae ge haeng bok hae bo in de yo
geu dae bo da jal nan sa rang e jal doen ir i rae yo
Okay, yesterday's work was tough. Physically... and it was mentally tiring.
First, when i had 2 hours left, my leg and back was already aching. And time was passing so slowly that i had to make myself overcome the mental barrier in my head of giving up.
Sian, have to report to work at 6 today again............
omgomgomg don't wanna go!! LOL
Love, Onew's.
Monday, November 23, 2009
@ 10:22 AM
Why can't they have this kind of magz here?
Like SHINee is always a small part of the mag only :(
Onew is so cute! :>
Omg i wanna see SHINee so badly..
Come to singapore please!
kk, so called cafe cartel yesterday and they said i have to report at 5pm today.
working night shift.
AMANDA says she's gonna go support me :) but not today..
EVERYBODY! today is WENYU's BIRTHDAYYYY :D
Quite nervous for later.
What if i drop plates?? Do i have to pay? :o
What if i trip over my own leg and fall with the food :/
Shit.
Come down to support me if you're freeee :D
can ask me the place of it :) :) :)
Love, Onew's.
Saturday, November 21, 2009
@ 10:37 AM
Went to mindchamps for meeting last night. I felt the love by mel, yet i still felt left out. Seriously had no idea why there was still problems.It was really emotional for me at night back home. i cried and cried and cried.Thinking of stuffs like how yj used to be there as the only one who understood me, and how friendship problems still occur to me, how i could feel left out even with family...There was a few times when i stopped crying, but when i see the messages, i'll start to cry again. What they said made sense and i really appreciate it. It was really the first time when i felt cared and loved by friends. I was really touched and at least i know that i'm not alone now.Thanks so much to AMANDALike all your long messages trying to calm me down and make me have faith in everything and GOD. Trying to tell me that real friends exists, i just had to choose them properly. You really made me feel loved and appreciateed, even much more than my mom. THANK YOU SO MUCH! love you!:)And STEPHGuess you heard it from Dione and you sent a super long message, telling me how you feel towards what i'm facing now, and that you've experienced it before, and by comforting me all the way. Like it was really truthful coz i didn't expect to read what you've sent.. thanks alot!!! love you too! :)And JOYCEThanks for just promising to give the best effort possible to amend our friendship, to get back as really good friends like we were last time, and overcome any obstacle.. I know it'll be hard because of her* but we'll try hard! love you! :)
Love, Onew's.
Thursday, November 19, 2009
@ 7:31 PM
My life has to be the most complicated one in terms of relationship with family.
Like wtf is wrong with my mom?
yea, i'm definitely greatful for her spending much money on me.
But it doesn't mean that she could suddenly change her mood and attitude towards me right?
Like i recieved a msg from her today, saying that if i don't get a job by monday, i'll have to go to her shitty office to work.
She's knows it damn well that i hate working there. She'll just like boss me around. hate it.
And she just popped this ORDER (not request) that i MUST find a job by monday.
Like wtf, i'm supposed to make someone hire me in 4 days?
And she msged " stop wasting my messages". like wtf
i'm not someone who harassed her or sth. i'm like her daughter for god's sake.
See, this is how my mom talks to me.
ultra love much?
fuck shit la
Love, Onew's.
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
@ 5:37 PM
no matter how much of my mom's money i spent, i can never win you.
cause you steal, and i don't.
so stfu, don't fucking scold me
Love, Onew's.
