yoooo/

2010-02-20T13:52:00.001+08:00

my school played hyunA's change before morning assembly. how cool is that?

2010-02-05T19:39:00.002+08:00

WOW. 2ND WEEK INTO JC... SO MANY THINGS TO TALK ABOUT!!!!! :D

Kay, so here's a list of things.. i think i missed out alot of stuffs.

MONDAY.
We were separated into our respective classes based on the subjects we chose. I ended up with 1T34. I was in the same class as cherlene, my OG29 mate. The first day, i was really close to abby! Then coz i wanted to make other friends too, i hung out with Cherlene and others... Then we and abby started being apart.... :( It's kind of awkward now. Monday just played in school with some water games.

TUESDAY.
WE WENT TO DRAGON BOATING! IT WAS SO DAMN AWESOME! EVERYONE GOT WET COZ EVERYONE PADDLED TO ANOTHER TEAM'S BOAT TO SPLASH WATER ON EACH OTHER. SO FUN!!!!!!! THEN WE ALL GOT MORE TANNED. HOUSE MEETING..........

WEDNESDAY.
Went to SJII (St Joseph Institute International). We took about 20 minutes to walk there. We played with flour and water and rubbed our butts onto the grass that some of the grass went into my friend's undies. AHAHAHAHAH! IT WAS REALLY DISGUSTING!!!!!

THURSDAY.
We went to Marina Barrage for mini olympics. When they say MINI olympics, it's really MINI! We played only 2 games.., walked to the top, took picts, and went back to school. THEN, THERE WAS ORIENTATION FINALE. IT WAS SO FUN, THE SKIT, KOJIN AND 1T34!!!! WOW, I SCREAMED LIKE SOME CRAZY GIRL. EVEN MORE CRAZY THAN HOW I ACTED IN QSS! hahahahha :D OMONA, SPEAKING OF THE MASS DANCE, SO COOOOOL LAH. GOT INDIAN DANCE INCLUDED ALSO. THE DANCE WAS DAMN CUTE!!! BUT MY PARTNER, KENNETH, SIBEI DEAD. HAHAHAHA BUAYTAHAN!!!!!

FRIDAY.
SCHOOL HAS OFFICIALLY STARTED. Today was the first day of studying. We had Chinese, Gp, Maths, and Econs lecture. OMG I THOUGHT I DIED DURING GP!!! THE WORDS ON THE NOTES PROVIDED WERE SO CHIM I COULD HARDLY UNDERSTAND ;( :( AND I REALLY HAVE TO START READING ON EVERY SINGLE NEWSPAPER ARTICLES FROM NOW ON. OMG SHIT DIE HAHAHAHA. WISH ME LUCKKKKK!

CLASSMATES. (SOME)
HAEJUN UNNI - HALF KOREAN, I CALL HER UNNI :D :D STARTING TO BECOME CLOSE TO HER :D
CHERLENE - SO FAR SO CUTE! HER LAUGHTER IS DAMN CUTE. SHE'S LIKE DAMN EXCITED WHENEVER WE'RE CLOSE TO ZHENGYANG.
ZHENGYANG - NANHUA GUY WHO'S DAMN HILARIOUS WITH HIS FACIAL EXPRESSIONS. HE'S LIKE A SMALL BOY. HAHAHAHAHAH WE KEEP LAUGHING AT HIM AND CALLING HIM MARY/BRITTNEY UNTIL HE BECAME SAD. :D HE'S DAMN CUTE!!!
SEAN - HAHAHAHAH. SUPER QUIET. ABIT CREEPY. HE SAID HE'LL TELL ME STH (SECRET ) ON MONDAY. HAHAH HE TOLD ME TO KEEP TO MYSELF... SIANNNNN CAN'T SPREAD RUMORS!
RYAN - HE LOVES YOONA. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
YISHEN (??) - HE LOVES CANDICE ^^ ^^ ^^ HE'S FUNNY GUY.
MATTHEW BRYAN LEO - HAHAHAHAH QUIET...
KENNETH - SIBEI QUIET LIKE SOME NERD HAHAHA WTH NVM.
CRYSTAL - SUPER HYPER GIRL!
VERONICA - AW, SHE'S NICE :D HAHAHAHAHA

SO MY HOUSE IS "KOJIN"
KOJIN I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!
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2010-01-29T19:30:00.002+08:00

DAY 2 IN CJC.

I bought 2 sets of pe attire. The material is okay, but i love QSS's pe attire the most!! ( i miss being a queenswayan! ). The pe shorts are shorter than Qss's pe shorts, and they have no netting. So girls can easily show their innerwear off. WOW. Now guess why the abortion rate is so high? LOL-.-

Chose my combi today. I choose H2 chem econs math, and H1 China Studies in English. I hope at least one og29 friend will be in the same class as me!

I made friends today/became closer to some people!! :D And they're names are so weird that i couldn't remember some of it! HAHAHA.

Should i be looking forward to monday? When they separates us to our class and things start all over again. Things like finding a new friend, summing up courage to talk to them, and think of things to talk about. Sheesh! I suck at making friends! hahahaha. But there'll be Dragon boating and Mini Olympics next week. I'll definitely be looking forward to that, even though i wished we could do it with OG29!

Oh!! Last thing. I HOPE THERE'S GONNNA BE CUTE GUYS IN MY CLASS. HAAHAHHA WHY SO MANY PEOPLE ASKED IF I SPOTTED ANY CUTE GUYS IN CJ ANYWAY :O

AND I SAW 2 OF THE SJI GUYS WHOM I USED TO SEE REGULARLY WHILE STUDYING IN JURONG REGIONAL LIBRARY! :D ONE OF THEM IS REALLY CUTEEEE! ^^

2010-01-28T16:41:00.003+08:00

HI!

First day of school... How should i phrase it.

My first feeling: INTIMIDATED. Yes, i felt really intimidated by the amount of chij, maris stella, and sji students. They're from schools which are apparently better than qss. And the way they speak english with such accuracy and good pronounciation really scares me off. That was why i didn't talk much to them today. I was like a quiet girl today. HAHAHA UNBELIEVEABLE. HOW CAN JOY EVER CLOSE HER MOUTH! AHAHHAHA.

Other than that, school was okay. Played a few games, made friends... Didnt really remember their names! ahahha. I remember clara from cresent girls :) I hung out with her the whole day. Then Si Yang, funny guy! hahaha. Oh! Jocelyn from chij is really friendly! :)

School song is like omgwtf plz.. THE SCHOOL SONG HAS ONLY 7 LINES, AND ONLY 438972952 CHIM WORDS. Like i only remember one sentence.. " OF TREASURES PAST AGES HAVE BESTOWED ". I swear i didn't know the meaning of the word until NOW. LOL! Yea.. and believe it, i score 3 for english.. LOL

The criteria to choose the combi you want in CJC is really strict! For combined science students who want to take 2 h2 sciences, you have to score A1 for combined science, emath, and amath.. ALL OF THEM. LOL!

I'm considering taking Math, Chem, Econs as H2 subjects, and either History / China Studies in English (CSE) as H1 subject. And since i didn't score 10 and below for R5, i can't get a chance for a scholarship. So i'll work hard for my H2 math and ensure that my grades for math are good and consistent. That way, i could be offered H3 math in J2 and i'll get a chance for the scholarship. :-) Good plan uh, the problem is, can i do it? I hope i can :-)

For this today and tomorrow, it'll be mostly icebreaker games and talks about choices of combi. Next mon to thurs would be more of a bonding session between the classes. I'm excited about the dragon boating @ Kallang on Tuesday, and Mini-Olympics @ Marina Barrage on Thursday. Cj's orientation sounds really fun :D

Wow, there'a alot more i want to say, but i've forgotten. I just hope i'll gain confidence and start talking to the fellow OG29-ians. AHAHAHAH! :D Hope tomorrow's gonna be BETTERRRR!!! :D

BYE!!

2010-01-27T16:22:00.002+08:00

I'VE TONS AND TONS OF THINGS THAT I HAVE BEEN WANTING TO SAY. BUT I'VE FORGOTTEN-.-

My first choice is Catholic JC. Yes, i know that the school has bad reputation for abortion rates but it's still a rather prestigious school right? And since my mom has forced to continue my studies in jc, then i just chose the best jc my score is entitled to. :-) I really hope i didn't make the wrong choice.. Looking forward to school tomorrow. Meeting Tim and Agnes..... But they're going to appeal to nyjc. And if it's successful, i swear i'll be a freakin' loner there!! :-( I hope the people there are friendly and approachable :/ GOODLUCK TO ME !

2. SHINee

Finally sold the SHINee tickets after realising that SHINee's only going to sing a song or two. I hope they don't sing too many songs, or i'll regret not attending that concert!! :S Mom has agreed for me to attend their fansign meeting this coming Sunday!!!! Well, and Mom found out that we had to buy an album to get in. But i told her my friend's buying the album for his sis, and i'll go in to help him get it signed!! COOL OR WHAT? Then mom said JUST BUY LAH. HAHAHAHA. But i'm abit reluctant to waste money buying. D-: Then again, I'M GOING TO SEE MY DARLING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HOPE HE'LL FALL IN LOVE WITH ME!!!!. HAHHAHAHAHAH! :D

3. Immature

I'm really seriously freaking taken aback by your attitude. Seriously man, the actions you did were wrong, and YOU know it. So why blame and get angry over yourself, while treating others like it's their mistake? You know what, i used to think that you're a really mature person, ready to be an adult but i guess i was wrong. Turns out, you're more childish then i already am. I used to get sad and a little mad when you throw your tantrums and ignore me for days, but guess what? I'M NO MORE LIKE THAT. I don't care how the fuck you want to treat me now, cause it's your business. Be childish, complain to your friends, give me cold shoulder. But all i will say is that i won't stoop to your level. If you want to be like this, fine! I'll not bother you anymore. whatever...

4. 2PM

I LOVE 2PM TTM!! I love nichkhun, taecyeon, wooyoung, junho, junsu, chansung!!! HAHAHAHHA. Even though i don't idolize Jaebum, i still think that the group needs him so bad. He's like the emulsifier! He binds each and every member together! JYP should be smart and get jaebum back! OR 2PM IS REALLY GONNA GO DOWNHILL FROM NOW ON!!! :-( I'm sure no one wants that!!!! :(

5. Selfish

I've to admit this no matter how reluctant i am. I can't confront my friends one by one. I'm sorry that i've been so selfish. I realised that i only treasure my friends when i need help and that's definitely going to change! :-)

FUCK, I JUST SAW TOO MANY VIDS OF HEECHUL FRENCH KISSING WHEN OTHER SUJU MEMBERS.. THIS IS FAR TO SICK FOR ME. I'm started to feel disgusted towards suju! DISGUSTING LIKE FUCK!

ANYWAY, TMR'S THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL. I HOPE EVERYTHING GOES WELL :-))))

ANNIONGGGG~

2010-01-11T18:25:00.002+08:00

OMGOMGOMG. I was so shocked when i saw my name on the distinction club (bronze).
Like wtf, JOY GOT INTO THE DISTINCTION CLUB??? LOL!!
I couldnt believe it coz i'm not so smart and clever or nerdy. I just wanted 11/12 for r4 to be contented. It turned out i got 9 for r4 and 12 for r5.
I'M SO SURPRISED THAT MY ENGLISH AND HUMANS BOTH SCORED 3!!! I didn't even memorize the format for stupid SEQ! LOL!!!
I'M FREAKING HAPPY THAT MY EMATH AND AMATH SCORED 1 :) not to show off, but i really worked really for math since sec1 :) :)
Chinese improved to A2!!! really happy :)
science a2... okay la.. i targetted that grade.
F&N B3.. All i can say is "SORRY FLORA LEE, I LET YOU DOWN!!!!!". should have studied more for the theory! HAHAHA!

Thanks for those who felt happy for me :)
At least i know god (ah zhor) fulfilled me wish :)
Onew gave her his good luck too! ^^

Complete what you have started

2009-12-26T16:18:00.001+08:00

ah, fuckit. there's some shit problem with blogger.

my post starts from back to front.

coool.

2009-12-26T16:03:00.002+08:00

well, that's all! I LOVE ONE DAY!!!

And merry christmas :-)

2009-12-26T15:18:00.005+08:00

AND THEN, THERE'S 2PM!!!!!!!!

INITIALLY HAD 7 MEMBERS, BUT DUE TO INTERNET CONTROVERSY, HE WITHDRAWED HIS POSITION AS A LEADER OF 2PM AND WENT BACK TO USA :-(

He's JAEBUM. And everyone is waiting for him to come back :(

APART FROM JAEBUM, THERE'S 6 OTHER MEMBERS! BUT I'M ONLY UPLOADING THE PICTS OF MY FAVS ^^

First, chansung!! SUPER COOL!

THIS IS MY DEAREST NICHKHUN!!!! THAI AMERICAN..

MAD CUTE.

AND THERE'S JUNSU! I SWEAR I LOVE HIS VOICE. FREAKING AWESOME CAN?!

LASTLY, THE SUPER HOT TAECYEON!!!!!!

HE'S CRAZILY HOT.

CHONGSHINEOPSHI CHAM??. LOLLLLL!
In "i hate you", he rapped " comeback be my girl, come back and be my girl".

Hotzxzxreewz.

2009-12-26T14:34:00.002+08:00

SUPZZZ!

GONNA BLOG ABOUTS ONEDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!

AS YOU KNOW, 2AM + 2PM = 1DAY :-)

I'M STARTING WITH 2AM.

It's a 4 member group under JYP<3

First member i wanna introduce is JOKWON!!!!!!!! He's hotttmmmmzzz

Then, it's seulong.
LOOOOOOOK!! In the picture (below), seulong (right), is standing beside my DEAREST NICHKHUN!!!

:8D
Then, there's CHANGMIN! He's really funny! Also permanent guest in GOLDEN STAR BELL! awesome!
Lastly, theres' JINWOON! cute...

2009-12-24T15:30:00.001+08:00

OHCRAPZ! Russell make me wanna dance so bad

2009-12-24T15:19:00.002+08:00

OMGGAWDDDDDDDDDDDDDDxwyzzzzz.
I'M CRAZAAAAAYYYYYEEEE OVER 2AM'S 이창민 & 조권!!!

LEE CHANGMIN IS SUPER FUNNY, AND HIS SINGING IS JUST OMGHEAVENLY!!!!
JOKWON IS SUPER HOTHOTHOT! THE WAY THAT HE DANCES (GEE, ABRACADABRA...) ONLY MAKES HIM HOTTERRRRR!!!

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!!!!
KPOP FTW YA'LLLLLLLLLLL!

TELL YOU WHAT I LOVE!

2009-12-23T19:11:00.002+08:00

I LOVE 2PM!!! ♥
From 2pm, i love NICHKHUN, JUNSU, JAEBUM, TAECYEON!!!!!♥

From SHINee, OBVIOUSLY ONEW LAAAAAAA!!!!!!♥♥♥

From SuperJunior, i love EUNHYUK, EETUK!!!!! ♥

From BigBang, i love DAESUNG!!!!

I'M SUPER CRAZY MAD IN LOVE WITH 2PM!!! NICHKHUN!

2009-12-23T14:57:00.002+08:00

TODAY'S GONNA BE AN AWESOME DAY AGAIN! :-D

I messaged Gloria & told her about sth good that happened to me yesterday, she called me back this afternoon, and talked to me for about 5 minutes? IT WAS SO AWESOME TALKING TO HER. It was as though she knew what's planned for you in life. I could hear that she was extremely happy for me!!! :8D

I WILL LEARN TO LOVE AND APPRECIATE LIFE...

I will never use the word "try" again, because trying is guarenteed failure!!!!!!!!

CHAO HO SAI! MF-erzxzx!

2009-12-21T15:35:00.004+08:00

I FORGOT TO THANK BAOWEN!!!!!!!!!!

I'm feeling very guilty right now cause i forgot to thank her. Since long long ago when i started having problems with the people, she has already talked to me. Even though i would never say much to her, she'll still be there.. Her funny character nvr fail to cheer everyone up. And few days ago during the last day of the program, she gave me this poker card, and said

BW: You know what's so special about this card??
Me: (shakes head)
BW: This card is able to replace any missing poker cards.. and i'm giving it to you.
Even though i cant really explain what she was trying to make me feel, i knew she was helping me.. so i thank her :D I love her so much !!!

2009-12-19T22:27:00.003+08:00

I'm 75% obsessed about you, and feel 25% of hatred towards you. You know fuck damn well that you're hot and you have the looks. But what you don't know is that i'm crazy over you. But no worries dude, i promise i will stop.

From this day onwards, i promise that i WILL (not try, but will) stop thinking or bothering about you. Because if this continues, i know that i will hate my good friend/good sister. Because what you didn't know is that i know you like her. She's an interesting person and i know you like her alot. So i'm letting you go.

Bye, hot.

It's the second and last time i'll talk about you.

2009-12-18T18:46:00.000+08:00

My mind now is filled with the things Steve said to me.
Like " i'm just waiting for you to shine", " you can always call me up whenever you need help" and "don't try. trying is a guarenteed failure".
I mean, the sentences are really meaningful to me :)
I LOVE STEVE:)

2009-12-18T14:41:00.005+08:00

I always mentioned that i'm assisting in a program but nvr really clarify what it does. I'm gonna say it now.

Mindchamps is the name of the whole thing. When u sign up for Mindchamps, you have to go for classes for about 9 weeks(??). Also, Mindchamps organises a program called EmpowerU (sec sch and above), also known as YoungChampions (P5 & P6) . It's a 2&half days program. And everyone shows love by hugging one another. Yes, hug :) We also say I Love You to one another very often.

It's a program that empowers the peoples' life, making them more motivated to carry on in their lifes. Making them to believe in themselves once again..

I assisted in a program on 15, 16, 17 (Tue,Wed,Thu). I must say it is one of the best programs that i've assisted in so far. Not only have i managed to speak my mind about all the troubles i had, but also able to feel the love in the assist team. The seniors (some) did show their care for me, and i was really touched.

One of the presenters, Gloria, talked to me yesterday. She taught me alot of values. Tried to tell me reasons for things happening and made me put myself in their shoes. I really got what she was trying to say. AND I LOVE HER TTMX! Also, Hafiz, Steve and Louis told me what had happened to them and what they are going through. The feeling of them sharing their stories with me is really undescribable. It is so because i used to think that no one cared for me, but after all they have said, i felt well loved. And I LOVE ALL OF THEM and thank them so much!

The words Steve said to the participants in the previous program are still vividly stuck in my head. He said " you're amazing... Don't doubt it".. Because of things that happened throughout my 16 years of life, i have low self-confidence. Upon hearing him say that sentence, i felt that he was saying it to me, coz i've always doubted myself. I'm now so motivated to regain my confidence and become amazing... He also said " i know you are special.. I'm just waiting for you shine now". After hearing this, i felt that someone finally spotted me. Someone finally found that special part of me. I'm seriously glad for this and i'm willing to give everything a go. Every single option given from those who were sincere in helping me.. AND I LOVE STEVE!!

Nicki and Jumana were the one of the many seniors whom i seldom/never talked to. But on the second day of the program, sth happened to me which made me cry. Louis spotted me crying first and then came Nicki. I could feel that he was worried about me and he even asked if i mind to share what happened with him. I did and he tried to comfort me. And on the third day, when the assists were hugging, he hugged me and said that he'll be there whenever i needed someone. Yesterday, the assist passed around papers with their names written on it. everyone is supposed to write their thoughts abt each other on the paper. Nicki wrote " ... I love you and I'll always be here ... ..." I swear i teared alright. I LOVE HIM TOO MAN!

And Ju came along giving me a hug. I felt her energy. The way she hugged, it's as though she was my bestfriend and is sharing my pain together. I'm unable to describe the feeling clearly because it's almost imposssible. But ya, moral of the story, i felt it. and for that I LOVE HER SO MUCH!

Unfortunately, this program is the last program of the year. And i have to wait til the next holiday before there's another program. By then i might be too busy studying or sth. But i'm glad that i'm looking forward for the next program from deep down my heart!!!!

And this program made me feel "LOVE" in a different way. Not that kind of I Love You to one's bf or gf, but I LOVE YOU as in i appreciate you :)

ASSIST TEAM FTW! :D

Lastly, i've learnt from Audrey (Assist) that when you hate/dislike a person, you tend to have something against him. Like you'll view everything that he does in a bad way and this is how i feel towards this arrogant asshole.. I don't wanna hate anyone in the team, so i just hope that we'll settle our problems soon..

2009-12-09T15:48:00.000+08:00

So not looking forward to the trip later:(

2009-12-08T14:54:00.002+08:00

It takes a second to say " I Love You", but it takes a lifetime to show it.

Love can sometimes be magic, but magic can sometimes... just be an illusion.

& trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you've never met.

GOING MALAYSIA TMR AND SICK-.-

2009-12-05T15:45:00.001+08:00

bogoshippo

2009-11-28T01:26:00.004+08:00

Friday
I had many short dreams last night which i can't recall.
All i know is that in one dream, i was with a friend (on my left).
My another (guy)friend came and i think we were in a relationship.
So we held hands and i lean on his shoulder and said " so comfortable ".
It may sound weird, but i do feel the warmth...
And i really hope that you would appear soon.

Went to work today. Saw Alvin from AspireHub...
So shocked! but i guess we became friends just now??
And this China guy... i don't know his name. He's so nice!!!!! He helped me carry the heavy (veryvery) tub of water to my station! And when this girl moved back and bumped into me, he immediately got a tissue for me. ahahah how nice!

Overall, i still think the guys have better advantage in this cafe.
Coz most of the seniors are girls and they LOVE to flirt
LOL!!

Saturday
Today's work was kinda bad...
My partner didn't come.. And i was really lonely.
Okay, there's not much difference between him coming or not but i guess there's no one else who would talk to me there, that's why i became so paranoid. (LOL)

Today
Going to work soon.. Starts at 12.
Going to Des's work place tmr to apply for that job, coz my job is so damn tough. i wanna quit. heh.
Omg, so reluctant to go to work.
Must walk for another 5 freaking hours!
Clearing plates, wiping tables, refilling water.....
sucks...
WISH ME LUCK MAN-.-

2009-11-25T17:33:00.002+08:00

ok... i've cooled down now.
Seriously, it's not that i'm lazy or anything. i dont have the power to arrange the schedule.
Second, i'm just a teenager waiting for my results, i don't wanna end up as a workaholic like you.
Third, by my actions, i think it's absolutely obvious that i dread and will not want to work at your office... Unless you're too stupid to see. It's not that i don't wanna go, it's that i hate taking orders from you. you treat me like some kinda maid, and try putting yourself in my shoe you'll feel how i feel.
Fourth, no offence but you are always the one spoiling my day.
Like i could wake up one day feeling happy but you definitely have to spoil it. Idk why, but maybe it's just your natural reaction... Maybe you like to make people suffer? i'm not so sure about you..
fifth, i'm human. i need rest. it's my first time working, and you won't expect me to work all day 24/7 right?
lastly, i don't even get to keep the money. So work so hard for what! Really la, you don't even know how pathetic i feel sometimes by the amount of money you give me. I don't even get any money on school-less weekdays. (Thanks so much for it btw)

And you always claim that you are the one who understand me the most, well i tell you now. YOU DON'T.
There are other ppl around me who knows me better than you do fyi.
I'm gonna start praying to god everyday, hoping that you wouldn't spoil my happy times...
tyvm

2009-11-25T17:10:00.003+08:00

work yesterday was actually kind of fun!

Like there was this senior manager(??) who came, and she was super nice.
At first she taught me how to read the menu.
Then she asked some people if they drank water or not, and i said no.
Then she said "must drink water! must drink water and go toilet". Like she said it in a super caring tone. Then she asked another water to pour drink for me and vanessa.

Also! I realised that there were 4 sec4's in the store now. LOL!!
And this guy said: you took o's ah?
Me: yea..
Him: ... i learn Venice.. (LOLLOLLOL!!!!)
The sentence came out from him immediately.

OH FUCK GREAT.
MY MOM JUST CALLED AND DEMAND THAT I HAVE TO WORK AT LEAST 5 DAYS A WEEK NOW.
SHE FUCKING DID NOT TELL ME BEFORE WHEN I FIRST STARTED TO WORK.
AND NOW THAT I FOUND ONE, SHE SAID : you can come here to work but you choose to go there. so it's your choice and if you don't work 5 days every week, you have to quit immediately and come to my office."
FUCK IT LA, LIKE SHE DIDN'T EVEN SAY IT EARLIER.
AND SO WHAT? NOW I'M THE BOSS AND I CAN DECIDE MY SCHEDULE MYSELF???
FUCK OFF LA, SERIOUSLY.

So now it's my fault la?
you told me to find a job or i have to go to your office. I die also don't wanna go so i went to find a job in a short time limit of 3 FUCKING DAYS.
And yeap, i got the job.
SO NOW YOU FUCKING DEMAND MORE BY JUST SAYING?
DO I LOOK LIKE SOME FUCKING BOSS WHO CAN ADJUST AND PLAN MY OWN WORK TIME???
SERIOUSLY WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU.
YOU COULD HAVE SAID THAT TO ME EARLIER RIGHT?
FML LA SERIOUSLY.

2009-11-24T13:24:00.006+08:00

In love with T-ara!!
Joheun Saram and Ko Ji Mar are so real. Like really meaningful!!
I like Soyeon the most! Love her voice. :) :) :)

mo du deur nae ge haeng bok hae bo in de yo
geu dae bo da jal nan sa rang e jal doen ir i rae yo

Okay, yesterday's work was tough. Physically... and it was mentally tiring.
First, when i had 2 hours left, my leg and back was already aching. And time was passing so slowly that i had to make myself overcome the mental barrier in my head of giving up.
Sian, have to report to work at 6 today again............
omgomgomg don't wanna go!! LOL

2009-11-23T10:22:00.004+08:00

Why can't they have this kind of magz here?

Like SHINee is always a small part of the mag only :(

Onew is so cute! :>

Omg i wanna see SHINee so badly..

Come to singapore please!

kk, so called cafe cartel yesterday and they said i have to report at 5pm today.

working night shift.

AMANDA says she's gonna go support me :) but not today..

EVERYBODY! today is WENYU's BIRTHDAYYYY :D

Quite nervous for later.

What if i drop plates?? Do i have to pay? :o

What if i trip over my own leg and fall with the food :/

Shit.

Come down to support me if you're freeee :D

can ask me the place of it :) :) :)

2009-11-21T10:37:00.002+08:00

Went to mindchamps for meeting last night. I felt the love by mel, yet i still felt left out. Seriously had no idea why there was still problems.

It was really emotional for me at night back home. i cried and cried and cried.
Thinking of stuffs like how yj used to be there as the only one who understood me, and how friendship problems still occur to me, how i could feel left out even with family...

There was a few times when i stopped crying, but when i see the messages, i'll start to cry again. What they said made sense and i really appreciate it. It was really the first time when i felt cared and loved by friends. I was really touched and at least i know that i'm not alone now.

Thanks so much to AMANDA
Like all your long messages trying to calm me down and make me have faith in everything and GOD. Trying to tell me that real friends exists, i just had to choose them properly. You really made me feel loved and appreciateed, even much more than my mom. THANK YOU SO MUCH! love you!:)

And STEPH
Guess you heard it from Dione and you sent a super long message, telling me how you feel towards what i'm facing now, and that you've experienced it before, and by comforting me all the way. Like it was really truthful coz i didn't expect to read what you've sent.. thanks alot!!! love you too! :)

And JOYCE
Thanks for just promising to give the best effort possible to amend our friendship, to get back as really good friends like we were last time, and overcome any obstacle.. I know it'll be hard because of her* but we'll try hard! love you! :)

2009-11-19T19:31:00.002+08:00

My life has to be the most complicated one in terms of relationship with family.
Like wtf is wrong with my mom?
yea, i'm definitely greatful for her spending much money on me.
But it doesn't mean that she could suddenly change her mood and attitude towards me right?
Like i recieved a msg from her today, saying that if i don't get a job by monday, i'll have to go to her shitty office to work.
She's knows it damn well that i hate working there. She'll just like boss me around. hate it.
And she just popped this ORDER (not request) that i MUST find a job by monday.
Like wtf, i'm supposed to make someone hire me in 4 days?
And she msged " stop wasting my messages". like wtf
i'm not someone who harassed her or sth. i'm like her daughter for god's sake.
See, this is how my mom talks to me.
ultra love much?
fuck shit la

2009-11-17T17:37:00.002+08:00

no matter how much of my mom's money i spent, i can never win you.
cause you steal, and i don't.
so stfu, don't fucking scold me

2009-11-16T09:25:00.002+08:00

Holidays has been boring so far.
There's absolutely nothing to do.
MY GOD......... -.- so boredd.
It's been raining alot too.
I'm fucking bored.........................

Not looking forward to prom, like how most ppl are feeling.
Qss prom feels unappealing.
It's so troublesome to find a dress and i've decided to wear mom's.
Like seriously, it's just a day to get done with ...

ah, wtf.
so bored.
ciaozaaaaaaa, mothafucka! ^^

2009-11-10T17:37:00.004+08:00

Aigo.
"Darling, darling.
You must have given *her* too much luck.
So much that you fell sick.
I feel sorry for you, and hope that you'll get well soon.
Once again, you'll become one. "
Saranghae

No mood no mood no mood no mood no mood.
you didn't fucking reply.
it's fucking boring.
No fucking mood to study for mcq.
Watch too much of the muddafucka PeterChow's video.
Becoming fucking vulgar.
Patience is fucking running out.
FML.

2009-11-09T09:21:00.000+08:00

wth you slut.
you're not even lawfully engaged with him.
fuck, i'm disgusted

2009-11-05T23:30:00.003+08:00

why do you wanna freaking scare me with my fears all the time?
u know damn well that i'm afraid of it, yet you wanna act smart.
you think that i'll overcome my fears by scaring me more?
god damn. you're truly wrong man. seriously.

2009-11-03T23:17:00.001+08:00

best friend huh...

I'll be thinking twice about that.

2009-10-31T18:43:00.002+08:00

It begins the moment the final buzzer sounds
each player meets it differently.
it takes place without flash bolts.

Pushes you to the limit,
and then just a little further.
And it will remind you that your best, can always be better

2009-10-17T00:37:00.001+08:00

Getting a new phone tomorrow...

OMG, Olvls are in less than 10 days time. & I'M STILL SLACKING-.-

2009-10-13T09:26:00.001+08:00

MOM'S GONNA GET ME A NEW PHONE THIS WEEK^^

2009-10-11T19:24:00.004+08:00

YESTERDAY WAS DAMN COOL.
MY GREAT-AUNT'S SON GOT MARRIED.

Morning went to their house... nothing much
Then left to shop got clothes to wear at night...
Then the night dinner was kinda fun.
Met Jackie(?!), ex-tuition friend.
Elaine, Great aunt's daughter.
Rachel, Anges and Jason, Great aunt's brother's children. (HAHA)

Kept taking pictures during dinner.
After dinner took pict with bryan/brian.
Idk how to spell. He's my relative btw, and same age.
Then i took a pict with him...
After a while, his sis called me to take again.
This time, his mum asked him to put his hand over my shoulders!
LOL! DAMN MALU LAH...
hahahahhaha i was damn shy...
but... yeap!

Going to eat New York New York^^ TATA

2009-10-07T21:41:00.002+08:00

MY PHONE GOT STOLEN.
SO THOSE WHO WANNA CONTACT ME, CONTACT THROUGH MSN OR STH....
I'M PHONELESS UNTIL..... idk when. HAHA

THE PERSON TOOK MY WALLET TOO.
BUT GOT ONLY LIKE $1PLUS, OR MAYBE $2. HAHAHAHA LOSER.
TAKE LA!!!

no fucking mood to study la. gg.

2009-10-03T17:23:00.004+08:00

FRIDAY.
School as usual. LAST ASSEMBLY :(
Then Emath group study.. and talked about which teacher likes who most.
AND we figured... MISS CHAN DISLIKES AISYAH THE MOST AHHAHAHA!
Then tuition...

SATURDAY.
Went to library to study. NOT PRODUCTIVE AT ALL.
Then went to meet yongjie for his history file.
SIGH! I fucking miss him, as a friend only tho.

Really wish you could stay by my side forever, to just hear me out forever.
But i know it's impossible....
Your attitude has kinda changed.
..
I will never forget the times tho...
It's worse than breaking up with a man you loved for years.... just that this time, it's a friend whom i've loved the most.

If i could have 2 dreams granted, i would want my dream to be realised... and of course, for you to be here.
:(

2009-09-30T22:15:00.002+08:00

Seriously, i really wanted the most-improved... no shame saying it out.
Because i wanted it as a motivation... and acknowledgement from others....
Really, i craved for it since starting of the year..

too late i guess...

2009-09-25T21:35:00.000+08:00

And her dear friend left the romo guiltily... ... not!
(L-O-S-E-R)

2009-09-24T12:06:00.002+08:00

I LOVE BUDDY(!!!) AND SAMUEL WEE! (as friends--)

OMG, LOVE THEM SO MUCH!
THEY BOUGHT ME SHINee's AMIGO ALREADY~ OMG.
i can't believe it! I love this album
It's full of SHINee's pict and all.. best part is i can read some of the korean words!! :D
THANK YOU MANY MANY! hahahahah.

AND! STEPHANIE, THANKS ALOT FOR TODAY!!
haha, you know.... history..
WO AI NI! hhahahahhahah!<3

aiya. stress... omg,

2009-09-22T08:11:00.002+08:00

In com lab now to complete coursework. OMFG. TIRING!

... and bored~

I really have nothing much to blog about because life hasn't been that interesting this few days. All i did was stay at home and go online and stuffs. I'm fucking wasting my time, but i can't stop. I'm super addicted to the com!

Aisyah is beside me nowwwwwww!~ She's pissed at Gabriel for mocking her

I gotta start to chiong, but i just don't feel like it. And better still, Miss teo did come AGAIN! Like she throw us a mountain of homework (?!) and took a leave-.- I haven't do yet la, but still... what the hack is she trying to do......

I LOVE ONEW!

2009-09-17T20:12:00.002+08:00

I got study leave ^^ but note to self : nvr to be complacent...
So gonna go study with Steph in that one week.. IN THE LIBRARY! hahahah!
School was alright.
I really needa buck up.. I don't have any A2 and C5, but have 2 C6.
WTH.

i feel negative towards coming home now. :(

Ps, i love SHINeeeeee!

2009-09-14T18:29:00.000+08:00

joy wang scored A1 for emath.
MOFO. I thought i would get B4-.-
I EVEN TOLD MY TUITION TEACHER MY PAPER 1 ALRD -37 MARKS.
lol.
Paper 1 : 57.5/80 (okok nia)
Paper 2 : 85/100! (OMGOMGOMG)
LOL.
sorry for boasting, but it's my first time getting damn fucking high results.
LOVES

2009-09-09T20:54:00.004+08:00

Sometimes, i just need a break from everything.
(YOU are not my friend)
You are always contradicting yourself, saying how much you don't want me to grow up.
And the next minute saying how fast i shld.
Scolding me for the fucking slightest mistake i make, while ignoring the major ones.
Scolding me for tasks you assigned me to, yet fucking can't do it yourself.
So what fucking right do you have?
wtf, me doing you a favour everytime = me getting more fucking scoldings from you coz you're unsatisfied.
DIY it you're so good.

I fucking regretted even telling you that thing.
I JUST FUCKING NEED A BREAK.

whateverrr, to you

2009-09-09T15:06:00.002+08:00

I LIKE EUNHYUK FROM SUJU!!<3>

"NICE WEATHER"

"I'M LONG!" HAHAHAHAHAHHAH!!!

Ps. i still love onew the most! CHECK THE VIDEO OUT

Wanted to upload onew's picts... but there's sth wrong with blogger.. :(

ANYWAY!

SCORED 71/100 FOR SUBCHEM. (but i will fail physics)(FIRST TIME PASS CHEM EH)

AMATH scored 63.8 (FIRST TIME B EH) not bad... quite happy..

OMO, i have a useless english teacher! USELESS.

for the first time, i feel " i've got other friends now, so byebye" from you. well, go on.. happy living~

2009-09-08T12:44:00.002+08:00

ONEW♥
KEY♥
Jonghyun♥

^^

TAKEN AWAY. happy? ^^

AGE: 16

2009-09-06T14:33:00.003+08:00

start acting like one.

Saw this shop that sells korean stuffs.
Went in with shanice and joey.
Shanice helped me find SHINee's stuffs!! hahahah!
BUT HOR, THOSE SHOPOWNERS DON'T LIKE SHINEE LOR.
In the WHOLE shop, i only found 3 SHINee items.
Bought 2... a keychain with the word " SHINee", then beside it was onew's korean name!! :D
Another was just a laminated sheet of their photo. (A4 size)

I LOVE SHINEE SO MUCH!
and i just saw this vid of Onew in some interview.
HE HAS RECOVERED!!!
ONEW, SARANGHAE!!!!!!!!!

2009-09-03T19:49:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ONEW'S GF, JOY :D

haha this is probably the best birthday ever!
I LOVE EVERYONE MAN! really.

FIRST
Sisters. Older sis saved money (OMG) to buy for me earpiece. She NEVER saves, and yet took out $18 to buy me a bd prezzie. So touched!
Younger sis draw me a card, it's not beautiful, but it's SO DAMN AWESOME! She hope i get into the school i want, and hope i meet my favourite band, SHINee, and boyfriend, ONEW!!.
HAHAHHAH!

SECOND
Friends.

Shanice&des: thanks for the cute toy?!!! HAHAHAHAH! It's really very very cute! :D

Minji,maykuan,audrey,feiyun,amanda,ashley,meijuan,carmen,uli,cherying: THANKS YOU GUYS SO MUCH. The card was so awesome! the picture was so cute, thanks you guys!! i really appreciate it! So gonna laminate it! :D

Cheryl: gonna gimme my card. ahahah I SHALL WAIT AND SEE^^

AND THANKS TO THOSE WHO WISHED ME, I REALLY APPRECIATED EVERY THOUGHT <3

THIRD.
Mother.
She spent hours with me after school to go eat and find SHINee's stuff, even though she did most of the shopping. HAHAHA! The Elmo diary is damn cute! and thanks for buying me lots of stuffs these few days:D

FOURTH.
AUNTY.
SHE FUCKING BOUGHT ME SHINEE'S ALBUM, ROMEO!!!!
even though the cover page was TAEMIN, i really loved the fact that i owned some SHINee album~~~
But not that good, coz cant even see their face with masks! HAHAH!

FIFTH.
EARLY THANKS TO JEANNE AND SAMUELWEE FOR THE SOON-TO-BE-PRESENT.
they wanna buy me SHINee album :P
BE JEALOUS YOU ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!

I LOVE MY 16th BIRTHDAY!
THANKS EVERYONE!!!!!!!
<3

LIFE COUDN'T GET BETTER.

2009-09-01T09:52:00.003+08:00

I DREAMT OF KEY!!!!!!!!!!
OMO! I CAN'T BELIEVE IT!
I swear i'm not lying. He really was in my dream! :D

It was like i was at this partiular place eating some free food that me and one of my family members won.
Then i saw one of my tuition teacher-.-
Then i kept showing this person attitude, then she not happy, then ask my to meet her at another story of the place.
So i went and bla, i think i went with key.
Then after all the talking, idk what happened but it somehow made key involved.
He didn't really mind but i felt damn guilty..

"MA! LEND ME $10", SHOUTED MY SISTER!!!-.-
no more sweeet dream for today :(

I woke up to blog immediately la, afraid that i would forget the dream.
OMG, i was like looking through all my SHINee photos and was concentrating more on key ystd.
^^
HAPPPPPY!!!!!

Wanted to post key's picture, but stupid blogger got problem.
Ps, Key is at the top right hand :)

MY DEAREST ONEW

2009-09-01T00:30:00.003+08:00

Onew, get well soon.
I mean, it's not like your gonna see this-.-
Just let me go crazy haha.

WTF. JUST SAW THIS VID, WHERE THEY WERE DISCUSSING WHETHER ONEW IS A COWARD. CB LA.
Onew's like damn responsible la, it's just that the media only take the parts where he is careless in.
Like falling down and fainting (ONCE ONLY) is called weak? WTF sio.
He's not called the leader for nothing kay.

OMO. ANOTHER VIDEO SHOWED A DISGUSTING WOMEN KISSING ONEW'S HAND AND CHEEK.
(i feel onew's pain)
:(

ONEW GET WELL REAL SOON!

2009-08-29T13:33:00.003+08:00

I'm sorry to all Onew fans .....
MIANHAMNIDA!
Because.....

I DREAMT OF ONEW LAST NIGHT :P

BE JEALOUS YALLLLL!
:D

He was speaking in chinese to me :)
(ps, he knows chinese, so the dream is not ridiculous.)
I was that happy that when i woke up and saw him on the wallpaper of my phone, I SMILED WIDELY.
Like cant close my mouth like that. HAHAHAHAH!

I think hal-moni saw it and she stared at me.

AND I SWEAR I WOKE UP CURIOUSLY, UNSURE IF I WAS REALLY AWAKE.
(cause i remember seeing my hal-moni with 2 heads) hhahhahah! LOLLOL!!!

ohmo, i told you Onew's my bf ^^

2009-08-28T14:59:00.003+08:00

WATCH THIS CLIP.

2009-08-27T21:48:00.001+08:00

OMG. stunning.
I was otw home from tuition in the bus.
Then, i saw this guy.....
.
.
.
.
.
Hot?? YES.
.
.
.
.
Cute?? YES.
..
.
.
.
BUT it's because
..
.
HE LOOKS LIKE ONEW! OMFG.
HIS EYES ARE LIKE ONEW'S.
very extremely similar...

Maybe i've been thinking about onew too much
aww damn, why cant SHINee come to S'pre?!?!

PLEASE COME, WO AI NI MEN!

I ONLY GET CRAZIER AS DAYS PASSES ♥

SHINee BLINGBLING

2009-08-27T14:59:00.000+08:00

amath paper 1 today.
I thought it was extremely easy.
But i made a mistake...

I DIDN'T KNOW SIMILAR TRIANGLES CAN'T USE (SS)
?! (WTF)

I hope i lose less than 10 marks^^

2009-08-22T11:07:00.000+08:00

WHY MUST I SEE THE MAGAZINE?

I was searching for some SHINee mag.
Then i saw this SUJU's mag, there's SHINee on the cover.
SO I BOUGHT IT AT $5.
Opening it excitedly at home, i was demoralized to find only one freaking page of SHINee :(

I spent $5 on one page of SHINee :(
It's not even a very nice picture. DAMN.

BUT SHINee, HWAITING!!!!

2009-08-20T18:55:00.000+08:00

Today's tuition was great!
We sorta did work with primary school students.
OMG! totally 国际化.
There was a boy from KOREA!!!!!! and a girl from China.
Then there was another guy from somewhere... (Idk where).
COOL LA.

Then i talked to the boy in korean^^
He understood me :D

He was shocked when he found that i can read him name :o
(thanks minji)

ZZ. TMR GOT ENGLISH AND MT PAPER1.
siannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn~

2009-08-19T22:24:00.002+08:00

老师说了一句话, 是我感到非常感动.

I will work hard?

2009-08-18T17:04:00.000+08:00

Not selected for DPA...

Give up? Don't give up?

It's fucking fuck 12 fucking points!

2009-08-14T21:13:00.002+08:00

国际化 ^^

I ♥ them more and more :)

A QUESTION FOR YOU......

what are brains for?

2009-08-13T21:57:00.001+08:00

:(

SHINee has delayed their debut comeback coz (darling) Onew injured himself!!
He fell down the stairs and broke his teeth :(
Hope he recovers soon!

BE STRONG ONEW <3
HWAITING!

2009-08-07T23:24:00.001+08:00

Great, i'm starting to hate life.
I hate the fucking situation i'm in now.
I hate the fact i fucking have friendship prob since primary school.
I hate the fact that i seem to be unlucky with things all the time.

I used to take it in a brighter note, telling myself sth.
I tried my best to satisfy everyone around me alr, but i'm still the fucking baddie all the fucking time.
I really hate it.
you know, it's just like you wanna cry, yet you can't.
But when you do, it's always at a wrong time, in a vulnerable situation.

why the fuck fuck fuck!!!!!!!!
:(
No one really knows how i fucking feel.
Perhaps i'm taking it too sensitively, but who fuckcares?
CB.
i need people

2009-08-06T19:51:00.000+08:00

I thought today would be ok, turned out to be disastrous.

I had a whole bunch to blog about, but i totally forgot what it was.
I mean, please be more reasonable okay?
I tell you, it's only a cold war now.
I swear that if you had spoken one more sentence, it would have turned to a war.
What you said, was really too rude and ridiculous.
I can't accept it, and never will.
It's not even my fucking duty to fucking serve you.
I'm fucking in charge of money only.
"it's always like that???"
fuck off. you dare to say and don't dare to look up at me.
What a loser.
So think of who is wrong, before you dare to fucking bitch about me okay.

Luckily steph left early and walked pass me class
And i had someone to rant this fucking story about.^^

I don't know why but this week is really crazy.
It's not the school work that is stressing me up.
But rather all the friendships are practically tangled up.
Everyone has friend probs. wtf.
I just hope it stops.
Everyone comes to school in a sad mood, and pulls down other's mood too.Why?
The only things that can chill me is chocolate, and SHINee!
Ah, whatever....
Went training on tuesday.
Shoot more than train.

At night, mom said sth. If i get good grades for O's, she'll brnig me to her work-trip in march 2010.
to KOREA!!!!!<3
I so wanna go there^^

Tmr celebrating national day.
And mom's bd is tmr. ( doubt we are even celebrating-.-)

AND I LOVE FEIYUN X100000 for giving me SHINee and superjunior stuffs^^!!!
SPECIAL THANKS ME MINJI AND AUDREY FOR HEARING ME OUT THE OTHER TIME<3

2009-08-04T21:02:00.002+08:00

Students, It's time for you all to turn on your engines.
It's only 2 weeks away from prelims, and 2 months away from your O's.
.
.
.
But .......
(teacher, i can't find my engine? i've been searching for it a long time ago, but to no avail. I can't find it.....i'm starting to think that i dont have an engine...
.
.
Somebody??
.
.
Anybody?
Sigh, it's just like usual..... no one's around...

This week has been absolutely depressing.
All i did was cry, cry, and cry,
Luckily, i have a friend i can always go to for advice (i think)
I really really thank him for telling me what i shld do and all...

...In the process of IMpatiently waiting for SP's email regarding dpa.

I want one moment in time

When I'm more than I thought I could be

When all of my dreams

Are a heartbeat away

And the answers are all up to me

Give me one moment in time

Whem I'm racing with destiny

Then in that one moment in time

I will feel, I will feel eternity

2009-08-01T17:16:00.005+08:00

Why i treasure my life so much?
Simple, i have a dream and a goal to fulfil.
I need it, i want it. And i must have it.
If i don't, i'll be as good as dead.
The whole 16 years (and counting) of my life would go down the drain.
At that moment, nothing i do will make me stand strong again.
So, i have to hit jackpot in my first try.
I know it, i just have to.
So i'm trying my aboslute best now, to give my all, in the hope of being what i was borned to do.
It's now or never.
[Forever or never].

Those who wanna act or pretend can do it now.
...Coz you'll see when time comes...

Perhaps after O's, i'll beg mom to let me join Studio Wu.
Then i'll learn to dance songs of J&K pop :)
It'll be awesome!

TODAY'S MY GRANNY'S BIRTHDAY. SHE'S LIKE 66! (i think)
^^ She may be naggy like shit at times, but she cares for you the most.
When mom scolds us, you can see that she actlly pity us and all.....
~just wish that mummy will learn to cherish her more~

Ps/ the reason why i blogged abt that was because i felt that many of my friends have no dream, or no aim in life. They just wanna live life a day by each. I felt that they're just wasting their time. At least find your interest, get something that will motivate you, i assure you guys would feel much better to have something you want to achieve.
It may be depressing sometimes, you may feel your goal is impossible to reach.. i do too. But it's your dream, you're the only one who can make it come true the most. So please, for those friends who doesn't have a goal in their life, i really urge you guys to do so... really.. I hope you guys know who you are.

2009-07-31T16:45:00.003+08:00

I'm in love with yet another korean -.-
It's PARK JI HEON from V.O.S.
I'M ALRD A FAN OF VOS BUT I'M GETTING CRAZY ABOUT PARK JI HEON.
HE'S VOCALS ARE LIKE WAHHHHHZXX.

HAHA! even tho i'm still obsessed with SHINee!!!!

ONEW, NA NOR SARANGHAE..

I'll tell you guys something:

Onew-nuen neh namjachingu!! <3

2009-07-30T19:34:00.002+08:00

School's BBALL COURT FINALLY OPEN.

Indoor court super nice!!!

YAYYYYYYYY! :D

AMATH TEST 37/45 :o

CHEM TEST 29/30 ( hahah, tuition cheated)

Today's amath tuition was very productive. I prefer to go tuition alone man, seriously.

AND LOOK AT MY NEW BLOGSKINXZXZ. IT'S FREAKING SHINee!!!!! <3

2009-07-26T20:06:00.000+08:00

Oh no, i just can't stop getting mad about SHINe and Super Junior.. And sometimes, V.O.S.
HAHAHAH! i need help.
All i do is keep thinking of their songs every moment !
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I LOVE ONEW!
I LOVE IT'S YOU.
I LOVE SORRY SORRY.
I LOVE 'MIRACLE' BY SUPER JUNIOR AND SHINee!
I LOVE THE FACT THAT SUPERJUNIOR AND SHINee ARE GOOD FRIENDS.
I LOVE THEIR HOTNESS^^
I LOVE KOREAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.
I LOVE ONEW!!!

2009-07-24T22:01:00.004+08:00

Oh, just great.
I'm getting more & more crazed up about Han-Guk-O 한국어!!!
And i just find out that my "bf's" name is not CHOI but it's CHUEH ._.

MINJI: TANG SHINEUN 한국 사람 :)

aysh! I still don't know how to write many korean words!
NA MOLLA!!!!
I only know the pronounciations.
I don't even know the sentence structure.
pathetic.
Kok-jong-mar-a-ra!
I will study harder for korean onley! HWAITING!

Anyway, i'm ashamed to say that i think i like ONEW more then minho now.
After youtube-ing alot about SHINee, i realised Onew is more talented, cuter, and (deserves more pity)...
About the pity thing, i rather not say what happened.
He's just so....poor thing.
But he's cute, and obviously good enough to be leader of SHINee!!
DOOBOO ORINDA NEUN ONEW!! <3

SHINee

Super Junior

Voice Of Soul

2009-07-23T21:53:00.002+08:00

Was looking through photos.
Looked @ photos taken from Taiwan.
MISSSED THOSE TIMES!
Now, let's hope that h1n1 will be gone in no time.
So we bballers could go bangkok this yearrr!! :D

I'm now in love with Super Junior and V.O.S
Omg,zzzz. Korean craze..
I hope YOU really keep your prmise and buy me a SHINee or V.O.S album^^

2009-07-21T19:47:00.002+08:00

Joy wang was supposedly elated when she bought the teenage magz.
BUT SHE WAS DEVASTATED WHEN SHE FOUND OUT THAT SHINEE WAS ON 1/4 PAGE THROOUGHOUT THE WHOLE MAGZ.

I AM FREAKING PISSED...

Ohwell, at least i now own a Super Junior poster. SORRYSORRY~ <3

2009-07-18T12:53:00.005+08:00

was searching more about SHINee.

AND I REALISED THAT IT'S TAEMIN'S BIRTHDAY TODAY.

HE'S LIKE 16 NOW.

ZOMG, SO YOUNG, YET ALR SO FAMOUS. ♥

heard a nice song called "Gee" by girls generation ystd.

AND GUESS WHO WAS THE MALE LEAD IN THE MV???

IT'S MY BOYFRIEND LA!^^

Yeap! no other than CHOI MINHO!

The way he acted was damn damn damn cute!! ♥

Some aesthetic nights pict!!

AISYAHHHH!

Note to self: Never go tuition again with an empty stomach.

2009-07-17T15:14:00.006+08:00

I mean like, how cute can my friends get?

First, Gabriel used Pokemon characters to represent most 401s.

LOL!

Then zoechoo used random things to represent us! hahahah! :D

Gabriel used the supafly one to represent me.

I asked him why?

He said because i'm a 很大只的苍蝇.

-.-

Then after that he said "supa fly like supa star" ^^

awesome!

Watched HARRY POTTER.

It's better than awesome, better than marvellous.

It's.. it's. er, just pure genious.

HAHAHAA.

Maybe my judgement's a little biased, but i really loved the show.

& the best part was that i watched it on the first day of release in S'pore! <3

School's indoor bball court is FINALLY done!

Well, it's not really indoor-.-

But ya, finally! :D

Going to tuition soon, ALOOOONEZZZZZ.

NooOOOooOOooOOOOOo!

2009-07-17T09:44:00.000+08:00

HARRY POTTER !
5/5 alr la!
It's funny enough, sad enough, shoocking enough!
<3

2009-07-14T17:47:00.001+08:00

Basketballers! :)

MUMMY

2009-07-14T17:28:00.004+08:00

got 50/80 for emath re-exam paper1.
sian, did worst than midyr.

School's boring.
Loads of students were absent.
Going to tuition tmr, then Harry Potter on thursday:D

Saw some koreans when i was queueing up in store2
AWESOMEZ man, the way they speak.

Msged ernie today, there's a hope that i'll achieve what i want.
But need mostly his help.
Please, help me.

2009-07-12T14:21:00.002+08:00

My hair always turns straight after a hair treatment :)
But there's no fragrant--

My boyfriend, Vivian :) AHAH

BUDDY!!

AESTHETIC NIGHTS

2009-07-11T17:06:00.003+08:00

Performance was alright.

Best part was the teacher's dance, esp the retarded teacher who had slow reaction.

Sat with RAUDHA and AMANDA OMMA :)

Our seat was damn close to the stage, so we shouted like crazy.

We cheered for Shanice, and she smiled while dancing.

After that took some picts.

Izdihar shocked me when he asked if i wanted to take picts with ex classmates.

Turned out that they were just schoolmates, but i recognized them all in the end.

:)

Miss primary school friends loads!

Asyraf, Izdihar, Izham, Izzat, and idk the last guys name :/

Uli

Mansur, he ai mei lo.

The skinniest teacher of teachers, miss CHAN (pink)

The CUTEST teacher of teachers, mrs Toh

AMANDA OMMA. (thanks ah :))

The funniest and bestest DM, mr Chua.

2009-07-11T07:41:00.001+08:00

Friday 11/7/09.
Aesthetic nights was great~
blog abt it ltr.

Saturday 12/7/09.
Off to school at 7.45AM, after a tiring night.
sigh, sleepy.

ohana? not very nice

2009-07-06T08:54:00.003+08:00

When people asks why?

i'll say " because i have a family like this ".

When people asks why not?

i'll still say " because i still have a family like this ".

I never knew family could teach you the moral " life is always unfair ". It was a pretty good example of unfairness. All thanks to them.

Here's the story....

There once lived a family. inside the family, was a powerful and biased queen, a powerless king who always obeyed the queen, three sisters, and a maid. Out of the three sisters, the queen loved, pampered, spoilt and protected the youngest one. however, the youngest sister had a bad attitude, a fucking rude behavior to her sisters despite the fact that the second sister had improved her attitude towards the youngest sister. Despite all the second sister's hardwork to change her attitude, she recieved no reward, and no respect from the youngest sister. and sadly, she even got blamed for getting angry just because she lost her temper ONCE that day. ON THE OTHER HAND, a sentence of arguement from the other 2 sisters to the youngest will cause the 2 sisters to get a fucking KP scolding from the queen. How is this not fucking biased???

One day, the queen decided to have an "agreement". It was to treat the youngest sister more strictly, and however at the same time, she will treat the other 2 sisters as strictly too. " please! she's already so biased now. what makes you think that you can treat us fairly ? who knows, you might treat her sternly, but treat us more like your servants, or the people who owned their life to you" thought the second sister. so the queen thought she was so smart coming out with this idea and asked the 2 sisters for their agreement. the second sister rejected and the queen said " why? are you afraid you will be rude and that i will scold you?" . The second sister's mind at that time, was flooded with much anger and frustration. thinking how could someone have such a proud, arrogant queen as a mother who doesnt know the word "equality"???

The end.

I hope at least someone figures out who i'm writing about...

I thought i had many friends to nag to., yet in times of trouble, i see no one...

2009-07-05T10:47:00.008+08:00

'Bling bling’ is JongHyun

‘Power Taem’ is TaeMin

‘Tofu On-Leader’ is Onew

‘Almighty Key’ Key

‘Flaming Charisma’ MinHo, My name is MinHo

We are shining SHINee

We're living in the SMTOWN!

♥

Love, SHINee.

2009-07-03T23:54:00.003+08:00

Yet another fantastic art work from RRRRAUDHA ^^

annionghaseyo, u-re-nuen SHINING SHINEE immida ♥

(hello, we are the shining shinee)

bloobloob. ♥ SHINee.

gonna meet bballers in sch tmr, &take bus to watch fiba 33.
I SURE HOPE I SEE KOREANS! :D
It's been long since i went out with juniors, hopefully we'll hang out more tmr :)

ILOVEMONDAYCOZITSAHOLIDAY!

2009-06-30T23:51:00.001+08:00

Thanks Cheryl! :)

SHINee Yunhanam reality show is awesome!!!!

2009-06-26T17:56:00.006+08:00

oh great, just what i needed.
i'm sick. i've cough, mild flu, and headache.
i had a high temp of 38.6 ystd but it's gone now.

I LOVE SHINEE!!!

"annionghaseyo, we are the shining shinee "<3

2009-06-23T11:09:00.003+08:00

Write the names of 21 friends you can think off the top of your head, and then answer the questions. Say you’re guessing if you don’t know, but at least guess on all of them.

1.shanice
2.yongjie
3.raudha
4.desiree
5.amanda
6.wenyu
7.marcus
8.isaac
9.jonus
10.royce
11.samuelyeo
12.buddy
13.vivian
14.juliana
15.lyssetta
16.aiko
17.jabez HAHA
18.cheryl
19.minji
20.feiyun
21.meijuan

*How did you meet 7 (marcus)
on school trip to nanjing 2 years ago:)

*What would you do if you had never met 15 (lyssetta)
nothing? haha!

*What would you do if 10 and 11 dated? (royce & samuel yeo)
one is my dad and the other is my mom, no biggy.

*Have you ever seen 17 cry? (jabez)
i wished! :S

*Would 5 and 16 make a good couple?(amanda&aiko)
hope not!

*Do you want to be 13's friend forever? (vivan)
OBVIOUSLY LAH, SHE'S AWESOME!

*Do you think 11 is attractive?(samuelyeo)
hahahah, a pretty mother indeed :)

*What’s 4’s favorite color?(desiree)
GREEEEEEEEEN! i think

*When was the last time you talked to 9?(jonus)
2 weeks ago?

*What language does 8 speak?(isaac)
NERD LANGUAGE

*Who is 12 going out with? (buddy)
no one????

*What grade is 16 in? (aiko)
sec3

*Would you ever date 17? (jabez)
HAHAHAHHAHAHA, go find out yourself!

*Where does 18 live? (cheryl)
IDK LEI! HOLLAND?! GHIMMOH?!

*What is the best thing about 4? (desiree)
hahahh her smileeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

*What would you like to tell 10 right now? (royce)
hello daddy, don't be sad anymore!!

*What is the best thing about 20? (feiyun)
she's uber nice! everything abt her is awesome :)

*Have you ever kissed 2? (yongjie)
HAHAHA NO!!!! but we hugged before^^

*What’s the best memory you have of 3? (raudha)
aww, the class chalet i guess ? :D

*When’s the next time you’re going to see 4? (desiree)
hopefully NOT next week, i hope school holidays will be extended. hhaha, when school reopens, i'll see her.

*How is 7 different from 6? (marcus&wenyu)
let's see, their sex. one's my shifu and one's my cousin :)

*Is 2 pretty? (yongjie)
YES, chiobuzx.

*What was your first impression of 15? (lyssetta)
Spoilt brat! (SORRY), but she's not, she's nice :)

*How did you meet 3? (raudha)
SCHOOLIE.

*Is 15 your best friend?(lyssetta)
Nah, she's my junior.

*Do you hate 12? (buddy)
No, i love her :D :D :D

*Have you seen 18 in the last month? (cheryl)
Like duh, we crap ALL the time about junlong. HAHAHAH

*When was the last time you saw 16? (aiko)
before school holidays.

*Have you been to 1’s house? (shanice)
quite a few times!

*When’s the next time you’ll see 10?(royce)
NEVER???

*Are you close to 11?(samuelyeo)
okok lor, last time. not really talking alot now.

*Have you been to the movies with 4?(desiree)
sadly, no .

*Have you gotten in trouble with 8?(isaac)
NOPE.

*Would you give 19 a hug?(minji)
We hugged a few times before (: heh

*When have you lied to 3?(raudha)
idk, maybe never ? haha

*Is 14 good at socializing?(juliana)
ask her urself

*Do you know a secret about 8?(isaac)
nope, but he knows my secret of being crazy over an idol^^

*Describe the relationship between 12 and 18.(buddy&cheryl)
They are good friends and classmates :)

*What’s the best thing about your friendship with 9? (jonus)
er, er, er, er, er IDK IDK !

*What’s the worst thing about 6?(wenyu)
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH!

*How long have you known 2?(yongjie)
i think 2 years plus :)

*Have you ever been in a fight with 13? (vivian)
Nah, never have i seen her fa pi qi~

*Does 11 have a bf/gf? (samuelyeo)
seriously, i don't think so.

*Have you ever wanted to punch 1 in the face? (shanice)
yesx99999999. hahha just joking!!

*Has 21 met your mother? (meijian)
Maybe, maybe not.

*How did you meet 20 ? (feiyun)
OHOHOH, Primary 5/6. There was this math warriors competition. I met her there :) :)

*Did you ever accidentally physically hurt 3? (raudha)
Nope, but she always beats me! :(

*Do you live close to 7?(marcus)
Nope, but shanice does.

*What's 8's favourite food?(isaac)
Brain food ^^ OMG, don't kill me.

*What kind of car does 1 have? (shanice)
she doesn't even have a driving lisence -.-

*Have you traveled anywhere with 9? (jonus)
Nope, but i've alrd travelled with shanice twice :D

*If you gave 5 $100, what would they spend it on?(amanda)
Oh, i know! she'll go with wenyu to topshop, forever 21, blablabla to shop for clothes!

2009-06-22T00:46:00.002+08:00

I was extremely happy ystd after i saw IDOL's comment on my wall. OHMYGOD it was hilarious. It's kinda the first time he joked with me LOLZ. Oh, and i have no idea why ppl would like my " joy wang is going to PAWN LEBRON AND KOBE next year" post. hahahahh! :)

Slept at almost 5 ytd, and woke up at arnd 1.30pm! HAHAHA.
Gonna wait till 1am to watch some breaking-the-magician's-code show.

Dear 401's,
I will try my best to upload the picts from the bbq asap. have to wait for the connector thang. thanks :)

Love, joy.
.
.
.
.
Father's day, went for some photoshoot at night @ suntec. saw ZOE CHOOOOOOO :) I loved most of the photos. Kinda photogenic at the moment ^^ wohoOoOoOoo. Then Sakae then
walked then home. HA ha ha/

Photos to be uploaded ASAP

2009-06-19T15:01:00.006+08:00

I'm in ♥ with SHINee. ...

Even tho i'm still confused over who's who.

But Taemin is cute ♥

I also ♥ SS501.

Yes, Kim Hyun Joong is the leader of the band♥

I've learned more korean words today. Now i know how to say "please", "excuse me" and the song title "because I'm stupid" in korean 8) It's chusaeyo, chogiyo, and nae meoriga nappaseo. There might be spelling errors but the pronounciation is around there! (: AWESOME♥

I love korea.

401 Bbq

2009-06-18T11:46:00.006+08:00

Yesterday's Bbq was awesome (:
Wonder how was dad's chalet ^^ HAHA!

Went to meet mom first for camera. waited for a long time, was pespiring hell loads. So she came, and bought for me a delicious cheesecake. YUMZ.
Then met Des, Uli, Shanice, Raudha, Joey @ Outram mrt and headed to PayaLebah(?) Mrt and met up with Ernest, Collin, Darren. The items were really heavy and it took us a bus ride, and a fucking long walk to reach there.
While waiting for other people, some of us played poker while others played ball.

Then BBQ STARTED...
All i did was eat, talk, laugh, eat. Then eat, shout, eat, laugh, play poker, eat!
HAHAHA, i ate alot! (I'm strangely in a big appetite these days)
I also cycled quite a long distance with Uli and Raudha.

Night fell, and we started playing games like " guess the number ".

Ernest ate ALOT of whippedcream coz he lost.'

Then we played "Freeze and Melt"

I ran like some madwoman screaming here, running there.

Tripped a few times, but it spelt FUN!

Then played poker again.

Mom came to pick me, des, ian, darren home.
Felt so refreshed after bathing!LLOLZ

2009-06-16T14:53:00.000+08:00

It's so boring!

Study, I won't! (:

pinky finger nails (:

Class Bbq tomorrow (:

Unable to attend Assists dinner ):

2009-06-15T22:46:00.000+08:00

ROYCE FATHER. hahahahaaa.
Don't be sad okay, care less about relationship problems now.
STUDY FIRST OKAY!!!! :D
And when i've problems i will tell you :D
You can find me if you're sad too (: (:
& where's my bedtime story?!

LAKERS WON<3
I'm almost fine with Esther :)
LAKERS WON<3>
Shooting accuracy = shit.
LAKERS WON<3
Watching movie tmr i think
BBQ WITH 401 <3
LAKERS WON THE 15TH NBA CHAMPIONSHIP!!!!!

2009-06-13T23:41:00.000+08:00

YAY! My fucking pain ulcer is gone ♥
I need to thank isaac truckloads for helping me find the suitable course for me in poly. So i guess it's singapore poly's music and audio technology. hahaha ♥
Mom said i could go for class bbq coz sis could go for hers♥
Yay, i'm happy today♥

2009-06-13T09:33:00.000+08:00

LAKERS WON Game 4.

They won due to overtime, with most credits to FISHER. I think that the player of the game should go to Fisher or Howard laa. Even though Kobe shot quite alot, he missed truckloads of his shots...

Had milk for breakfast ystd, then nothing for lunch, 4seasame balls for tea, and nothing for dinner, and potato chips for supper. Awesome much? Was uber hungry today. There's no school next week, aweeeeesome! :D

Maybe going for a family photoshoot this sunday (: And probably playing bball with friends~

2009-06-11T17:32:00.000+08:00

Headed to vivo ystd.

( manda, wenyu, shanice,bryan gabriel,joseph)

Manda went home first

The rest of us went to Giant to shop for our practical.

Halfway shopping, we saw 5 Koreans.

Being awfully obsessed with korean-related stuffs after "Boys over Flowers",

I became insane and tailed them.

I dragged WenYu along.

And wenyu went " Goo Jun Pyo"

One of the korean girl whispered to her friend, then replied "Guem JanDi"

It was hilarious!

Then we followed them and attempted to speak korean

Luckily, i brought my handy "how to speak korean" book along

So tried talking to them in it.

And for those which i didn't know how to pronounce, i showed them the sentence

They were leaving when Gabriel TRIED to be smart

He went "aniyo." ( with bowing)

He wanted to say bye, but was unaware that ANIYO means NO

Everyone laughed their ass off

It was so fun, and i wanna see more koreans!

(Even though there is one HAN in my class alr) ><

Practical tomorrow, screw it.

2009-06-08T18:21:00.000+08:00

FRIDAY
Recieved a message from BAS saying that there was a miscalculation:(
Went for the program...
First day was alright, saw a few adorable participants here and there...

SATURDAY
The morning was quite alright.
Then i became emo coz i felt left out.
Maybe it's because i havent been to the program for a long while.
I was damn down.
But HILARIOUS BaoWen came and cheered me up :D
Was also the day when Esther talked to me LOL.

SUNDAY
Was another perfect day sent to me by my group, seals.
But a frustrating day from friends.
Coz i really don't know if you're treating me more like a friend, or like a person whom you will only go to when no one is there to help you out... Really.
Seals didn't win but they rocked their asses off!
I loved the assist performance, loved baowen's sense of humour, loved my team, and just loved the program.

Sorry for my retarded face-.-

If you can't see that i'm trying to change,

and instead see it as my weak point,

then i'm sorry.

Something has to be done,

and i know that the limit is near...

very near

Anyway, all the best for 6-8June YC participants.

Especially the indian girl ( her name's too long to rmbr), Clarence Low, Samuel Low, Samuel Chin, Don, Dion, CHARLOTTE and DE SHUEN!!!!

AND THE SEALS!

2009-06-05T13:38:00.000+08:00

YO. (acts cool like woobin sunbae)

哈哈。我等一下就要去 mindchamps 的 program 了。
好久好久沒去了。好興奮喔!
Today's program is for Primary school kidzxz.
Gonna see those assist that i haven't seen for ages!
And i hope lexuan comes tomorrow.

it's good that we got into the semi-finals for 3on3.
But i certainly am sure that we wouldn't get pass the first round for the semis.
how? :(

希望回來的時候會有照片！
：）
再見了！這兩三天内不會寫（部落格）？！
嗯嗯

2009-06-04T23:39:00.000+08:00

Sorry, but i didn't really wish for those to happen.
Forgive me for this once more.
& i promise you'll see change, unni (!?)

2009-06-02T18:13:00.000+08:00

It's never going to happen, is it?

Why do i feel a strange feeling whenever i finish watching a part of Boys over Flowers?

It's just a weird feeling, it can't be describe.

No matter how hard i try.

Why.

Is it because i just know things like that couldn't and wouldn't happen for real?

Because there is no fairy tales in this world that could ever happen?

agrish.

I'm really that gullible? Or just stupid?

Can i not tell between reality and dreams?

What exactly is wrong? And how do i amend it?

Are there really bestfriends that are that close, that they would seriously care for each other no matter what? that they will help one when it risks the other's life?

Doubt so right, it's just acting. It can never happen.

Yet, i seem to be unable to catch reality, unable to grab hold of what's real and what's not.

The envy i have to be someone i'm not.

The fog that seemed to block my road towards my dreams, suddenly seemed so much thicker, so much so that i can only see that bit.

I'm starting to lose what i'm living for, what i yearn for.

Starting to lose that confidence and determination i once had.

Starting to fall into pieces, and starting to realise that no one is here to guide.

A part of me tells me to let go of the unforeseeable dream, yet another part tells me to hold on.

But the truth is, nothing's gonna happen.

Coz i'm not working hard, i'm not even trying.

I can't seem to push myself, can't help myself.

And no one is there to give me a little push, motivation, or words of encouragement to boost my confidence.

I need someone, yet no one seems suitable.

Help. I dream of my dreaded dreams in my sleep, smiling...

But once i wake up, it's the start of a reality that i have to face step by step, second by second.

It's horrible.

If only it can be like the dramas on tv, or something else ...

Well, i guess no one will know the answer... ...

2009-06-01T21:52:00.000+08:00

Kay, so went for 3on3 ystd.
Saw Tongyi. LOLLL! Having muscle ache now.
We lost to NgeeAnn and NanChiauHigh.
HOWEVER, we won Dunearn and ANGLICAN HIGH!! :D
Rather on form for shooting ystd.

AND NOW, I'M GONNA BLOGGGG ABOUT BOYS OVER FLOWERS!

Lee Min-ho - GOO JUN PYO

He's hot. :)

Koo Hye-sun - GUEM JAN-DI

She's damn pretty without the nerdy hairstyle!

Han Chae-young - MIN SEO HYUN

Ahhhhhhhh~ i swear she's a diva

Kim Bum - SO YI JEONG

H.O.T

Kim Hyun-joong - YOON JI HOO!

I LOVE HIM THE MOST!

Kim joon -SONG WOO BIN

Kim So-eun - CHU GA-EUL

prreeeeetaye

I'm so addicted to Boys over Flowers!!

The show in Korean is the nicer than Taiwan's.

Gonna go watch it now!

♥